Seeing Everything Through the Lens of Birth....
Simple and grounded connection with our deepest nature allows us to connect with any parts of ourselves where we feel conflict or difficulty. This brings insight, healing, and empowerment. It literally saved my life.
I am so pleased to share with you a few excerpts from my book. Thank you for sharing your presence with me and taking the time to witness me.
Dedication
This book is dedicated to all seekers doing the dance of the Rasa Lila, the divine play between the relative and universal reality that I see.
I came into adulthood with a story. My story was that I didn't have a creative bone in my body. I told that story to everybody. Any time anyone would ask me to do anything creative, I would scoff at the very idea. I'd say, "I don't have a creative bone in my body so I can't help you with that project." That project might have been simply helping to decorate for a party.
Chapter 1: Just BE
I don’t have many memories of my childhood. I do remember that in 4th grade I was sitting in art class with a piece of white paper in front of me. The assignment was to draw something from my imagination. I knew I had no imagination so at first, I couldn't even start. After putting a few pencil marks on that paper, I crumpled it up. I remember getting very angry. I could feel myself getting smaller and smaller as the teacher moved towards my desk. I wanted to disappear.
Another time, I remember sitting in art class with a lump of clay in my hands. As I squeezed and pinched, that lump didn’t really turn into much of anything. The other kids in the class seemed to be able to create something. I felt like a failure. Why even try? I can’t even shape clay into the form of a mug or a bowl.
I was convinced that nothing I could ever do was good enough. I was never enough.
The Beauty of My Nursing Experience
Now as I look back on nursing school, there were places where I realized that something had been birthed. I didn’t even need to crack a book. I've been a nurse for lifetimes. I've been a midwife for lifetimes. There's some kind of licensure that says that alongside someone with a degree in medicine I can assist with the birth of a baby.
“I do birth. I see everything through the lens of birth.”
Jumping Through the Creative Ring of Fire
I woke up one morning ready to jump through the creative ring of fire - a triggering moment of really witnessing me. I chose to be super gentle with myself. I witnessed Eva Ambika, while imagining I was viewing her through the eyes of Yana Symonenko - a young woman who has been the biggest supporter of my creative exploration since the day we met. I’ve seen her body language as she has witnessed me and felt the divine existential presence of love, compassion, grace, and generosity. I wanted to emulate her as I saw myself this morning.
Thank you Yana for holding such a crystal-clear mirror for me... that reflection my Sacral chakra needed in order to burn away some of the remaining shreds of my “I don’t have a creative bone in my body” story.
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